the shenanigans of eenamorata

Today I am asking God of two things from 1 Corinthians 1:25. For the foolishness of God is wiser than men, and the weakness of God is stronger than men. At this point in time, I need a little bit of God's foolishness to handle things that my cerebral heart could not understand. A little bit of God's strength to keep my heart steady and focused into the tasks that He wants me to face. Irregardless of how willing I think I am to entertain seemingly welcome distractions that are not pursuing me anyway. Giving up for the nth time, letting God take my heart for safekeeping. So that my foolishness will be cured by His and my weakness be supplemented by His strength. So that if anyone wants to have it, the only way to get it is through the pursuit of God alone.  

Una sa lahat, mahal ko ang aking bayan. Ito nga siguro ang kasalukuyang naguudyok sa akin para manatili at piliin ang pagtuturo sa unibersidad. Lubos akong nagaalala dahil hanggang ngayon ay wala pa rin akong mapiling kandidato. Alam kong hindi ako magisa dito, pero ang weird lang this time kasi wala talaga akong mapili AT ALL.  Kasalukuyang mas lumalakas ang appeal sa akin na maging apathetic at mangibang bansa na lang para mas malaki ang kitaing pera. Itapon na yang idealismo nang paglilingkod sa bayan at paghubog ng mga iskolar nito crap kung ganyan lamang din naman ang mga pagpipiliang presidente. Mahal ko ang aking bayan, at nalulungkot ako dahil sa tingin ko... the Philippines deserves better candidates than the ones we have now. Wala akong mapiling presidente dahil: Ayaw ko ng presidente na walang moral compass. Lalo pa kung ginagamit niya ang kanyang kapangyarihan para mangamkam ng mga lupa at ariarian. Although nag aagree ako na may mga kandidatong tuso at magaling

I thought it would be fun to share some reflections on my personal quiet time today. It has been a while since I sat down to write and reflect about things that I have been reading, and I somehow had an "AHA" moment with it, thus the decision to share it here. My devotion today is from ODB, and the Bible reading is on Deuteronomy 6:1-12 The author started by acknowledging that God wanted him to say the things that he was about to say. Then verse 2 immediately follows with the effects f those things, such as,  my children and their children may fear the Lord, as long as I live and keep the commands that God was giving me. [an inter-generational promise.. pretty neat actually] enjoy life He then addresses Israel in general, sort of reminding them to follow and obey also. But, what caught my attention is that the reminder was again followed by its effects. Which are: so that it may go well with me increase greatly in a land flowing with milk and honey ju

I am pretty sure that yesterday was a pretty good day. I got my requirements approved and I was given the privilege to attend to a pretty cool meeting with the vice president of our university. To be honest, I was a bit wary of her at the start because people were giving negative feedback about her. But, I stand corrected. Because, as I was observing her during the meeting, I was really impressed by her character. She seemed to be well-mannered, definitely educated, motherly, and she exudes an aura of humble confidence.  As we were presenting the report, I was really happy that her response was that of appreciation and enlightenment. Sulit pagod for the past few nights when I have been burning the midnight oil for it. Got more impressed when she told us that she did not know that we had other options for the university issues that we were trying to address. She said, We should not be emotionally attached to our decisions. Beautiful beautiful perspective! Today I am happy

Two big words that I figured is something that I probably need to learn soon or die sometime later. I have been majorly procrastinating (just like right now. hahaha. but I think I need to pour these thoughts down before being able to be productive again.. hopefully) about the things that I need to do, and am most of the time blaming the recent incidents of sadness, disappointments, hurts, fatigue, trauma, and whatnot dramas for not having the drive to do anything... for letting myself fall into the dark nights of the soul and for basically self destructing at some point. Now, I am deciding that it is time to move on. Along with this comes the realization that it is a blessing to have people to go and spill your heart with when these dark nights come. Being able to just talk and share and just have someone to listen, never fails to give light to a dark night. And, as painful as it sometimes is.. my daily devotions is teaching me that it is also a blessing to experience the people o

I played the katulong card again today. :) After finishing the final touches on my programming assignment, due today, someone came knocking at our door... Person: pwede po sa may ari ng bahay? Me: Bakit? Ano pong kailangan nila? Person: ay makikisuyo po kami (something something I did not pay attention really) Me: [in my best katulong voice] ay surry wala po si mam at se ser ---> and the person went away So, when I got out of the house looking cleaned up and amo-like I got really bad stares from them. Hahaha. I really don't care. Its my birthday and I think I'm pretty much allowed to do anything that I want. Hahaha I greatly appreciate those who remembered me today and those who will (this post...). This is a different birthday from the ones I was used to because I don't really feel like celebrating. With a presentation, a thesis proposal writeup, an exam, two newsletters, a funding proposal,  a utility application and a recent death in the family... A celebr