26th
at 26 I am disappointed, at 26 I am frustrated, at 26 I am angry and at 26 I am mad at God. it has been months now of pasting smiles and laughing cued laughters. crying bitter tears to sleep is becoming too often. I am being too hard on myself for not achieving the supposed plan, for not getting something that I know I can do and something that I know I am definitely better at. I had backups, I had plan Bs, but the sentiments of being a proud person is not really helping. I have no plans to be peachy preachy about better plans. I have no plans to force myself to feel better when I really don't feel like it. I will not force myself to do anything that I do not like. I will just let things be for now. I will let myself be mad. I will let myself cry bitter tears of frustrations. I will let myself hate. This will eventually pass. I will eventually be tired of being mad, be tired of crying and be tired of hating. I am letting myself fall. I do not want to hold on t